Wednesday, December 18, 2013

Yay to Single Life Again!

Don't mind me. Just reverting back to that pathetic lonely person I was right when I started this blog. Come to think of it, I wasn't THAT depressing then. Single life after break-up has been hard. Rejection. In-your-face, ruthless, rejection all over again. I have been getting rejected by almost every guy I have approached since the past month and a half, getting cut off from my friends' plan, being a secondary option for a lot of people, not being a part of....anything actually. I have never felt so lonely in my entire life. As I sit in my temporary cosy room locked away from the wicked Delhi winter, I feel lost. Directionless. Ambition-less. 

Coming back from the market, I started talking to a dog about how he should not follow me as I have nothing to give as a huge part of my ability to love was taken from me and whatever is left is fading away because of dying hope, I realized I must write this blog post just to write something down. I keep telling people that how petty is the last thing I'll be after the break-up, I keep convincing myself that I have become a stronger person by letting things go. But have I? I don't where my life is headed! I don't know what option to choose! And I talk as if I have a lot of options...

My writing sucks. My grades are such an amazing proof of that. I have nothing to be proud of this year, 2013. My birthday was as good as the day of my break-up. Bottom line people - I am a piece of shit.

5 comments:

  1. Post breakup depression is normal . You know you have it in you to pull yourself back together. Grades ARE NOT an indicator of how smart you are , I don't think I need to tell you that.
    Coming to rejection, isn't this blog testimony to the fact that you ve judged/ rejected so many guys yourself so you know that rejection is a part and parcel of dating life. You give some , you get some.
    Don't worry about anything now. Don't overthink. You re perfect the way you are.

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  2. Thank you so much Hyacinth. You are an amazing person and a friend.
    I understand what you are saying, but still feels better to just write it down I guess..

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  3. Yes honey , you know I love you * karen walker style*

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  4. Sorry to hear that. I can't say I've had any luck in dating since probably 2012.

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  5. Thanks Arion. But I am in a much better place now.

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