Wednesday, December 18, 2013
Yay to Single Life Again!
Don't mind me. Just reverting back to that pathetic lonely person I was right when I started this blog. Come to think of it, I wasn't THAT depressing then. Single life after break-up has been hard. Rejection. In-your-face, ruthless, rejection all over again. I have been getting rejected by almost every guy I have approached since the past month and a half, getting cut off from my friends' plan, being a secondary option for a lot of people, not being a part of....anything actually. I have never felt so lonely in my entire life. As I sit in my temporary cosy room locked away from the wicked Delhi winter, I feel lost. Directionless. Ambition-less.
Coming back from the market, I started talking to a dog about how he should not follow me as I have nothing to give as a huge part of my ability to love was taken from me and whatever is left is fading away because of dying hope, I realized I must write this blog post just to write something down. I keep telling people that how petty is the last thing I'll be after the break-up, I keep convincing myself that I have become a stronger person by letting things go. But have I? I don't where my life is headed! I don't know what option to choose! And I talk as if I have a lot of options...
My writing sucks. My grades are such an amazing proof of that. I have nothing to be proud of this year, 2013. My birthday was as good as the day of my break-up. Bottom line people - I am a piece of shit.